Getting There

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Getting there, or am I? I would like to believe I am getting there, getting to the acceptance part that I need to be where I am now.And as I've mentioned in my previous entry, it even feels like I am wanting to be here.  Isn't it that I prayed that God leads me to where I should be, to where His plans are because those plans shall be for the best for me and my family? Not mine, but God's plans. Yes, when you don't know what to do anymore, you surrender to God. Everything I do now, I give to God. 

I cried a little last night. I was able to control it. I felt helpless. I thought of my daughter. I thought of how I will make it here. I thought of just being with my daughter will make me the happiest. But you see, whatever I do here, my biggest motivation is giving my daughter a comfortable life, making my retirement as comfortable and as fun as I could. I've made so many mistakes in my decisions because I didn't look ahead, I didn't plan. But it's no use to blame myself. God has given me and my husband another chance to rebuild our finances. Let me take them with all my heart. 

I have so many worries but isn't it that I pray every day, every night, every second to let faith reign in my heart. God has never abandoned me and my family. Me of little faith. I can do this through God's mercy. I am actually getting to feel the excitement of what life has in store for me here and what will be my first job. This is another chapter in my life. And all these for my daughter, for myself, for our family (me, my husband, my daughter). I want to give my parents a "relief" from all the sacrifices they have made, and still continue to make, for us. 

God, I know You will lead me to the right job. I know You will walk me through how our daughter will be with us at the soonest possible time. As always, my prayers remain for all of us to have good health, safe always, financially in great standing. 

Let me just believe in You, God. Instead of looking at all negativity, let me focus on Your mercy, on my faith, and the good things. 

1. My husband and I have another chance to improve our financials, and our life together. 

2. My daughter is capable and living in a safe and beautiful house we both chose. 

3. A chance to rebuild the house and make it our passive income. 

4. Opportunity to still work remotely while I look for a job here. 

5. Living with my parents in a nice house, with food all the time, not requiring us to shell out expenses. 

6. My husband having a job. 

Let me focus on gratitude, hope, faith, and love. 

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