Hay. I don't know what to do anymore with my daughter. She told me last night she was anxious to do her task today. Her task is to meet with our churchmate and her husband to pack all that we need to get from our house and transport to the unit. I told her I will call her so she can prepare on time.
Since I was busy organizing my things, I was not able to call her by 6:30am, but she messaged first saying give her five minutes. It's way past five minutes so I called her. But maybe it took 20 or so minutes before she finally messaged back.
I was pissed. So I let her be the one to communicate with our churchmate to adjust the time. She was able to do it. I ordered for her breakfast coz I want her to move it already. Not taking her sweet time. Geez, the world will not wait on her.
Add the fact that the organization I asked her to apply seemed to have closed their job ad already. It took her days to send me the cover letter. Hay.
I don't know if she really applied to that one company where her qualifications is 80% matching.
It took her days too to inform me regarding enrolment in the graphics media course. Hay.
She said she doesn't need a session with her psychologist coz swimming helps her. Though she told me two weeks ago that she feels demotivated. I explained to her that it's natural to feel that way with her situation that she's been applying for more than a year now. Her call backs come few and far between. That's why I am helping her now customize her resume.
I am stressed because I am also starting a new life here. I am worried for my daughter.
But I guess I need to let her go and let her do things on her own.
I will just find my composure now coz I lost interest in reviewing for my own applications and interviews scheduled on Monday and Tuesday. I feel something in my gut too. I don't know if this is due to stress but most probably yes.
The only thing I can do really is pray for me, my daughter, my husband. That we can go through this transition, that my daughter will finally have the desire to be successful in life and actually do things to help herself. Same to me.
God, I need you. I don't know what to do. As I keep on praying, please lead the way. Let it be that whatever steps I do, they come from you.
Thank You. I know You are taking care of me, my daughter, my husband, my family, so I should stop my overthinking. So help me, God.
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